A Voice in the Wilderness

Psalms 13
December 9, 2007, 4:08 pm
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How long, O LORD?
Will You forget me forever?
How love will You hide Your face from me?

How long shall I take counsel in my soul?
Having sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long will my enemy be exalted over me?

Consider and answer me, O LORD my God
Enlighten my eyes,
or I will sleep the sleep of death

And my enemy will say
“I have overcome him”
And my adversaries will rejoice when I am shaken



12-9-07 (Helpless)
December 9, 2007, 3:33 pm
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comforter of my heart
lover of my soul
i need you once more
after a troubled fall

a prayer in my heart
im afraid of what might start
i cant hold a guitar
nor sing in front of a crowd

a simple mistake
is all that it took
it gave birth to fear
within my heart where you look

comforter of my heart
lover of my soul
i need you right here
to wipe off my fear

its hard to hear a song
the one that took me long
o God feel that my heart is heavy
and i dont know when i’ll be ready

i trust in your will
my God you are good
i trust in your ways
the way you put these things to shame

i come to you broken
like i have always been
i pray that you make me whole
o lover of my soul

o comforter of my heart
wipe these tears of dark
teach me how to worship
no attachments, set apart

everything i lift up to you
i fear that i might fall away
right now i’m not in my right mind
help me o God, let me stay blind

i remember what you did
i’ll remember how you shaped me
molded me into this man
who runs to you after screwing up a band

o God my strength
help me up from the ground
i feel my every pound
pulling me down back to the ground

o comforter of my heart
o lover of my soul
my Lord and my God
let me know you more.

Is our God too small?
December 5, 2007, 6:09 am
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“Christian minds have been conformed to the modern spirit: the spirit… that spawns great thoughts of man and leaves room for only small thoughts of God.” – J.I. Packer

We are so used to human thinking and that thinking limits us of our picture of God. And with that image of God in our hearts, even His abilities are limited based on our beliefs. The problem here, when we get drunk and engulfed by our limited human thinking, if this is so… then it’s gets hard to love the magnificence of God for who He is. The uncreated, self sustaining creator who has burning passion for us, and instead of this we run towards our human idols that doesn’t run near to comparison to who God is. We think that other human beings can complete us, this is what I think that’s being spawned on our minds when we think of other men to complete us, instead of running towards a God who can definitely make us whole. We have lost the fear of the Lord, we are so full of ourselves that we even forget to tremble when the Lord is upon us. We get blind and deaf in the spirit. We couldn’t discern His presence and with that said, I’m afraid that because of that, we won’t feel the forgiveness of God. Everything else that we know about God is downsized, this is why we don’t experience God for who He truly is.

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Untitled 6-18-07
June 18, 2007, 3:03 am
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take me away
take me to paradise
bring me to your arms
let me experience the truth
what is pleasure?
what is love?
i pray that you wash my eyes
let it be of a dove
im overwhelmed by this world
so much things to do
yet all i want is you
so much things to go for
yet i keep on saying one thing
keep me in worship
a place where i want to stay
forget learning
forget knowledge
let my mouth sing songs to you
nothing more, nothing less
let my fingers write words about you
i couldnt care for anything else
perfect this thing that i ask of you
let me express the cries of my heart
no one listens, no one but you
let it speak, let it weep
let the words in this paper drip tears
this man is in pain and in suffering
let me stay in this place
where i stare at your throne
where all things are silent
where your songs are loud
peaceful yet wild.
lead me to that place
a place where tranquil love exist
take me out of this web of which i spun
so many lines, uncomfortable
im lost in my own time
comfort me with troubling thoughts
comfront me with fear of you
take all of myself
leave nothing, leave nothing behind
i want my hands washed from all of these
i want to stay and sit
i want to pray and fit
take me away
take me to paradise
take me to where music is loud
and praise is serene
bring me close to your arms
let me find myself in you

A Dance With My Father
April 11, 2007, 3:46 am
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one stare that would lead to forever
a glance that would start this dance
the light, blinding as You move
there’s the music from my heart, feel its groove

You once said feel the flow
as rivers of tears ran down my face
I never understood
Never, that’s why I remained rude

and along this dance
with lovely music to prance
I searched, with closed eyes
A proud son, with his head held high

Now You straightened my glance
with few words I’ve heard
“Why do you look up there?” He asked
With a quite smile I answered
“I seek You”
and a peaceful thunder, my heart was sundered
“What for? I’m dancing among you”
He answered back.

April 3, 2007, 9:07 am
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I personally like this poem that I wrote sometime last year, for it is one of the poem that I really felt God respond to the cries of my heart back then.

That’s why I named this poem “Dialogue” since this was an outpour of one prayer I had last year. Read on…

Father i seek you
i need Your strength as i sleep
for now i weep, for my brothers are blind
and im too small for them to find

Father i seek you
my heart burdens with sorrow
seeing the inevitable tomorrow
how can i let them see that its You to follow

Father i seek you
Father youre all i have
and in your majesty and fists
im showered by your grace, mercy and love


My son where are you
You have what you need
Why do you seek
Son do you doubt?

What happened to you
Its all in your hands, I sent mine to you
Now go for I’m with you
Dont worry, dont ever doubt

Son stand up and shout
I will make your voice a resonating sound
Scrub the sand and look around
See that My love abounds

For now you’re there as my heart
Now open their eyes and tend to the hurt
Awaken now my son
The morning warmth blesses you…
Son, Have fun…

Our War Crimes -talking about spiritual warfare-
April 3, 2007, 3:47 am
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Ephesians 6:10-13 –  10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

It is but a fact that there is a battle for our hearts passion. The other taking offense with the world’s cares and the other offering that wonderful eternity that lies ahead of us. The other one has easily seduced our hearts, and our passion that it is so evident, it abounds in our society right now.

Just recently, the media review board here in our country has allowed mature contents to be shown in cable television in late nights, they’re getting closer and closer as they threaten to pollute not just our children’s minds, but to our parents, brothers, and sisters as well. We all know that the enemy doesnt choose who to bite, he bites everyone, and when I say everyone, I mean not everyone is safe against his offense.

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Evil Presence… 1st Hand Experience
January 11, 2007, 3:54 pm
Filed under: Memoirs

I’ll come clean here, I am no super christian. I’m far from the perfection to where I’m supposed to be, and I continue to struggle from sin.

And to relay a story about 2 nights ago, when I was just in front of my computer, surfing on the internet and the usual sound trip, when all of a sudden something hissed behind me where a fan was placed. Its certainly not the rotors of the fan, nor the air that the fan produces. It was something else, and suddenly a chill ran up my spine unto my head.

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Wonderfully Ruined
January 11, 2007, 5:39 am
Filed under: Musings

If theres something that I am, I would consider me as a wonderful wreck… All this worldly mumbo jumbo has certainly dug deep within myself and I’m completely caught up with that mess.

There was a time when I just gave up on everything that I believed. I just went and left that christianity that I want to mold my whole life to stuff, and went back to the easy, cool to society worldly affairs. I know, how could I… After all of the poems and articles that I’ve written, how could I.

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Split Screen Romance
October 20, 2006, 6:02 am
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This one can make my heart beat
This one can draw me a smile
This one can make me wait a while
This one can make me run the Nile
im telling you that this one is worth the wait
even if it will take me 10 years, and cling on fate
This one can remove my sleep dust
that comfort made to rust
This one can put back that trust
This one, no one else
This one was the one i prayed for
This one, night and day until 4
When could i carry her through that door
This one is a wish that will come true
Have i given alot of clues?
that she’s the one that took my blues
This one i wish to spend forever
Sickness and health, to love so tender
This one i will be jealous on
When she doesnt answer my call
it sets a period on the statement
I know she’ll never be my own
This one ill love too much i know
Will i ever see her tomorrow
so that i could wipe my own sorrow
This one will take my heart
Thats why i ask You and pray
before that happens…
My Lord, Lover and God… Set me apart.